a fragile life

Daniel and I have an immense amount to be thankful for.  My thoughts are heavy on our dear friends right now, and I pray for God's Will during the whole process they are enduring.  It is so hard to pray for God's Will, b/c what I really want is what our friends most greatly desire.  I am selfish and want to pray for what they want b/c I can feel how badly their hearts yurn.  BUT honestly, what I want mostly from God during this time, is for them to be protected.  For their hearts to be protected and their minds to rest in Him, knowing that He has their best interests at heart.  Calm their minds and protect their hearts for the next 2 weeks.

This book that I am reading right now is a great example of how fragile our lives are and how fragile life is.  I am at a section in the book where the main character is experiencing heart wrenching grief and then he get's a second blow.  Something that would make me want to curl up into a ball and stay there until everything went away.  BUT, he is fighting for the life of his daughter, her upbringing and how she will now be raised; and like I said, when your child is the one that is determining your decision, it is a no brainier on what you do and how hard you fight.

Which brings me to another item that is heavy on my mind for some reason, and I have to not watch it b/c it will somewhat "consume me".  This trial that is going on right now about the mother that is being tried for killing her daughter haunts me.  I think before I had Aly, I would have just briefly thought of how sad it was.  But now that I have been gifted with my beautiful daughter, that I have held her in my arms the days she was born, to last night while drinking her bottle.  I cannot imagine what that woman is being tried for doing.  This little girl, who's whole world is Daniel and I; she trusts us to love her, protect her and provide for her; how is what was done to that precious girl even fathomable?

OK - I have to move on from this somber section........

On a lighter note ;), I will post some pictures of Alyson's first birthday, as well as some pics from our recent beach trip.  Thanks so much for the beautiful photography Haley, A. Amie and Mitch.  Daniel and I seriously need to look into a NICE camera~!!

Happy Monday